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Faizan
During the beginning of my life, I remember having two reoccurring dreams. In one of the dreams, I would be at the top of a flight of stairs and shortly after, I would fall down the stairs.
And in the other dream, or should I say nightmare, it was as though I was surrounded by everyone on the planet. Their attention, and the attention of the world itself, would be directed towards me.
A Long Way Down
The stairs that I would see in the first dream looked just like the stairs that we had at home. When I fell down the stairs in this dream, I would experience a lot of fear and panic; I thought I was going to die.
However, I would always wake up just before I hit the ground. At the time, I didn't know what was going on, but what I was only too aware of was how unpleasant this dream was.
I Carried On
It is hard to say how many times I experienced this dream as a child - in a way; it was just a normal part of my life. As a child, I didn't feel comfortable enough to talk to anyone about how I felt, so I would generally keep everything to myself.
But while I didn't know why I kept having this dream, it wasn't as though I felt as I was on stable ground when I wasn't asleep. In the real world, I would generally feel overwhelmed and as though I had no control over my life.
An Unstable Environment
This was a time in my life when I often felt that I was going to die; either through being hit so hard that my life would end, or by not being able to handle the pain of being neglected. I had no other choice than to simply tolerate what was going on during this time.
Falling down the stairs was a time when I felt completely powerless and as though my life would soon be over, which was a mere reflection of how I often felt in my day-to-day life. At this time in my life, I had to do what I could to survive.
A Different Experience
Fortunately, the second dream was not as common, and this is because it was a lot harder for me to handle. With the first dream, I would fall and then it would soon be over, but this one would last for a little while.
And in the other dream, or should I say nightmare, it was as though I was surrounded by everyone on the planet. Their attention, and the attention of the world itself, would be directed towards me.
A Long Way Down
The stairs that I would see in the first dream looked just like the stairs that we had at home. When I fell down the stairs in this dream, I would experience a lot of fear and panic; I thought I was going to die.
However, I would always wake up just before I hit the ground. At the time, I didn't know what was going on, but what I was only too aware of was how unpleasant this dream was.
I Carried On
It is hard to say how many times I experienced this dream as a child - in a way; it was just a normal part of my life. As a child, I didn't feel comfortable enough to talk to anyone about how I felt, so I would generally keep everything to myself.
But while I didn't know why I kept having this dream, it wasn't as though I felt as I was on stable ground when I wasn't asleep. In the real world, I would generally feel overwhelmed and as though I had no control over my life.
An Unstable Environment
This was a time in my life when I often felt that I was going to die; either through being hit so hard that my life would end, or by not being able to handle the pain of being neglected. I had no other choice than to simply tolerate what was going on during this time.
Falling down the stairs was a time when I felt completely powerless and as though my life would soon be over, which was a mere reflection of how I often felt in my day-to-day life. At this time in my life, I had to do what I could to survive.
A Different Experience
Fortunately, the second dream was not as common, and this is because it was a lot harder for me to handle. With the first dream, I would fall and then it would soon be over, but this one would last for a little while.
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